I had an experience a little over a week ago in which I felt that I was being coerced into a situation I did not want.  The person involved claimed that it was a misunderstanding, but this is more about my reaction to the situation than what actually happened.  As the experience progressed, I felt a change in my energy field.

I struggle sometimes to describe sensations that so many people are not yet aware of in themselves and not attuned to feeling.  A sense of energy is not well developed or even recognized in so many members of humanity at this time.  But I think I have come up with a way to describe it or at least how it was affecting me in that experience.

The way I was feeling that day with respect to energy goes back to what I was taught many years ago about the nature of the aura.  The energy of the aura of a person in their authenticity is smooth and even.  It is like the smooth water of a pond at rest.  When a person lies or is otherwise out of their authenticity, the appearance of the aura becomes rippled or shimmering, kind of like the rippled surface of a pond into which stones are being thrown.  It is the result of a type of dissonance.  That is exactly what I felt that day.  It was dissonance.  I could feel the ripple in my energy field, and it was not pleasant.  It was something akin to a mild full-body joy buzzer.

Several days later, after my anger over the event had calmed down, I was listening to a YouTube video of Peter Slattery interviewing Alfred Lambremont Webre.  Among other things, they discussed the topic of parallel universes, AKA the multiverse.  If you recall, I wrote about my understanding of how that might work in my post, Reality Is Like Television.  I wondered then if perhaps that energy reaction that I had might have been the movement from one parallel universe to another.  I began casting about for an answer to that question.

Then I remembered a book that I had received earlier in the week, Traveling to Parallel Universes by Trish LeSage.  In it, she claims to have shifted from one parallel universe to another over 100 times.  She discusses incidents such as I described in my Timestream Jumping post in the section entitled “Non-existent Records.”  The sensations that I described above are consistent with her description of moving to a parallel universe of lower vibration.

She also verified that parallel universes can overlap at times.  When that happens, objects or beings from the “nearby” universe may appear less solid.  In extreme cases, objects from the two universes may pass through each other.  I believe that I may have witnessed loss of solidity in the past as well.  I attended a class once in which the instructor went into channeling mode.  While she was channeling, she appeared to become transparent.  After the channeling was complete, I asked another student if she had seen that as well, and she had.  I’m so glad to have witnesses to some of this stuff because if I didn’t, I’d swear I was losing my mind!

I must say, it boggles my mind that someone could have shifted realities that many times.  I recall how discombobulating it felt when I became aware of the incident that I reported in the Timestream Jumping post.  Think about it:  If you were to shift from one universe to another, you cannot know for sure any of the history of the universe into which you had just arrived.  Some objects may be different.  Buildings and businesses may be different.  At the very least, there would be little point in arguing with someone about what did or did not happen.  You might very well both be right!  Similarly, attachments to persons or objects might be pointless since you wouldn’t know if you will soon shift into a reality in which the relationship is different or doesn’t exist at all.  When arriving in a new universe, there would be little choice than to just go with it.  Fortunately, there tends to be considerable continuity from one universe to the next when a shift is made, according to Trish.

Some time ago, I watched the video, We Are From the Future posted by Garret John.  He described a concept in which plants harvest light with near perfect efficiency even though this is impossible in classical physics.  The solution is so beautifully described in the video that any description I might give would pale in comparison.

I find it interesting that some of the reality shifts described in Trish’s book are essentially escapes from tragedy of one kind or another, much as when a photon collides as described in the video.  For instance, Trish described how she believed that her house may have burnt down with her in it within a nearby parallel universe.  At the very least, her experience presents an aspect of awakening that is seldom considered.

It is clear that I have found my way into the deep end; but if I am going to swim, if I am going to achieve my greatest potential, at some point I must let go of the side of the pool even if that means letting go of everything and everyone I have ever known.  I need to just go with it.

I’m reading two fascinating books right now: Beyond Past Lives: What Parallel Realities Can Teach Us about Relationships, Healing, and Transformation by Mira Kelley and Wishes Fulfilled: Mastering the Art of Manifesting by Wayne Dyer.

Mira Kelley wrote extensively of the nature of reality as revealed by past life regressions.  To begin with, according to the higher selves consulted, all lives are actually taking place at once.  Lives have a multiplicity of versions that exist in parallel realities.  Everything in reality reflects you.  Everything is one.  Everything “out there” is actually “in here.”  Essentially what Mira Kelley is saying is that reality is a hologram.  When a hologram is cut in half, the whole scene can still be seen in each piece.  A piece of the whole contains the whole.  A piece of the whole is the whole.

Meanwhile, Wayne Dyer quotes in his book one of my favorite verses:  “Is it not written in your law, ‘I said, “You are gods”’?” (John 10:34).  And also:  “Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, who, being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God.” (Philippians 2:5–6).

These concepts work well together when one considers that everything we perceive is actually a dream.  Consider your own nightly dreams.  No doubt, the you that you recognize is the main actor in these dreams.  The you that you recognize is the thinker and the decider in the dream.  What about the other objects and characters in your dreams?  What are they?  Do they not also originate in your mind?  As such, any of these objects and characters is capable of also being fully informed by your mind.  Any of them has access to any information that you have.  All of them are contained in you.

Now, consider that you and everything around you is a dream in God’s mind.  If God’s dreams are like ours, then everything we see has access to all of God, including ourselves.  We are part of God.  God is us.  This is how Jesus could consider himself to be equal to God, as in the verse above.  Furthermore, in that verse, Paul implores us to do likewise.  If we are in God’s dream, then it is not hubris to do so.  But then of course, we must remember that everyone and everything else in the dream is God also.  Namaste!

Now if you really want a head game, consider:  What happens to the you in your dream and everything else when you wake up?  What will happen when God wakes up?

I spent part of my day watching TED videos.  First up was Ruth Chang: How to make hard choices.

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This talk was about recognizing that there are deeper factors in the choices we make that relate to what we value as human beings.

Drifters allow the world to write the story of their lives. They let mechanisms of reward and punishment, pats on the head, fear, the easiness of an option to determine what they do. So the lesson of hard choices: reflect on what you can put your agency behind, on what you can be for; and through hard choices, become that person. –Ruth Chang

There were times in my life when I let convention dictate my choices in my life rather than conviction, or what I felt deepest in my heart.  There were times when I knew that by choosing to do the “right” thing, I was choosing against love.  That has resulted in a life of secret longing.  I have made an opportunity to rectify that longing, but I am faced again with the choice between convention and conviction.

Convention says that I should stay where I am because here, I am prosperous.  Here, I have some surety of my support.  Here, I will know with greater assurance where my next meal will come from.  Here, my physical needs will be met.  But I am also concerned that if I stay here, my passion of spirit will suffer.  If I stay where I am, I will more likely be a Drifter, as Ruth Chang would call it.  My sense of spirit and passion would be restricted.

Conviction says that I should take the leap and go out because I am better supported emotionally and spiritually elsewhere.  A relationship that I have found emotionally supportive has been offered to me again.  In this relationship, I feel my passion expand, and not just in the physical sense.  I feel in this relationship that my sense of my own abilities is expanded.  With an expanded sense of my own abilities, then certainly I would be in a better position to prosper while doing something I love and something that I feel is important.

The other video I watched today (that is important to this post, at least) was How to quit your life (and reboot): Priya Parker at TEDxUHasselt.

This talk offers determining what values are important to you as well as a tip or two in how to make the leap into a life that better fulfills those values. Priya Parker challenges the listener to ask,

What is the biggest need in the world that I might have the passion and capacity to address? –Priya Parker

Priya Parker offers some tools for determining what you value.

If you were to write an obituary of your life, would the result satisfy you? Would you feel that your life had meaning?

Ask your family and friends when they had seen you most alive and most passionate.  What were you doing?  Draw a comic strip about that time.

Get comfortable with discomfort.  Do things like sing while standing in line while shopping, taking yourself out to dinner with no reading material and without your phone, and facing the back of the elevator instead of the door.

Give yourself a “life sentence.”  A business might call this a “mission statement.”  What qualities do you want to express?  What do you do?  Why do you do it?

Do the Dwindling Cash Experiment to explore how you might live at various levels of income.  Determine how you are spending now.  Determine how you might live at various percentages of that income.  Use this information to decide how much income you will need.

Help someone else.  Identify five friends who do interesting work and offer them an hour to help them solve their stickiest problems.  Ideally, what they do should be something other than what you do.

Set a withdrawal date and send out evites.  Inviting others to share in your withdrawal and reboot creates accountability.

Don’t avoid thinking about meaning just because it scares you.  Changes in the Universe are very hard to make, but they’re even harder to make if you don’t spend time thinking about what most matters to you.  …  Changes in the Universe basically need time, and need space, and need risk.  So what I would urge you to do is to think about what matters to you, think about what makes you come alive, and think about what is actually happening in the world.  And then think critically and deeply about how you want to dive in.  Otherwise, you might be cheating the future on all you have to give.  –Priya Parker

A certain complication has developed in my urge to withdraw from my current life.  I think perhaps it was introduced by the gods as an inducement to move out of my comfort zone into my true purpose.  My communications with the gods have revealed that so long as I stayed true to that purpose, the indulgence of that distraction would be supported and protected.  Jesus and Pele have both expressed a sort of preference in favor of the distraction as opposed to where I am now.  It is also possible that the path of my true purpose may ultimately include neither influence.

With respect to the communications with the gods mentioned, I often ask myself if I am just making things up when I am meditating or journeying.  In Shamanism, we are taught that imagination has reality.  Channelers such as Steve Rother will also say that these processes will always feel like we are just making things up.  In other words, the feeling that I am making things up may not make it less real.

The main thing that has become clear is that I have felt stifled where I am.  Ultimately, I guess I have to ask my heart what it wants.  Ultimately, conviction will have to win out over convention.

This item was posted today: Gaia Portal – Prescience of mind is paramount as Gaia enters rapid ascension phase.

The first thing I needed to know to understand this was the definition of “prescience.”  It is “the fact of knowing something before it takes place; foreknowledge.”  Well, I know what I have been told about things.  I am deeply concerned that those who have told them to me are who they say they are.  These things that were said are controversial, and they will almost entirely change my world, if I act on them.  If they were genuine, then there is no question that action must be taken on those things.  Discernment can be difficult when dealing with beings from other dimensions.  Even the most highly advanced among us have been deceived at times.

Another part of the message that caught my attention is “Severance of expired paradigm structures proceeds.”  The grand question here is which is the expired paradigm.

There is something that I need to release.  I prayed about it in the ashrams this past weekend.  There is someone I have been holding anger toward.  This person does not even know me or that they have done anything to hurt me, and yet they managed to claim for themself something very dear to me in such a way that I could not even protest it, such was the finality of what was done.  It was someone else’s carelessness that created the problem, and yet that someone else can seemingly do no wrong in my eyes.  As I discovered the depth of the anger in me about this situation, I realized that I had better find a way to release it lest that anger go out and harm this other person.  Anyone who wants to tell me at this point that anger only harms the one who is angry most likely has no understanding of thought-forms and other ways a person can extend their energy.  But it is my desire to be harmless, and so this anger needed to be transmuted.  I can’t help but wonder if to do so, I will have to surrender that situation entirely.  I would like to think that there is a solution that will not require it, but I also don’t like a certain ghoulishness that this situation seems to create in me.  This most definitely needs to be healed before I can move forward in that situation again.  I will say that I feel better about the situation now than before I presented it in prayer over the weekend.  All of these considerations leave me wondering which are the expired paradigm structures.  What is it, exactly, that needs to be left behind?

One thing that I will say here, lest anyone become confused.  We are a few days into a Mercury retrograde.  Things decided now may yet change.  Decisions and agreements made during a Mercury retrograde are not necessarily permanent.  This is a time when we may encounter setbacks in our progress toward the goals we may have set when Mercury was direct.  We can only wait and see what happens when Mercury goes direct again around July 1.  As I said in the beginning of this post, I know what I was told about what is to happen.  A key person was informed of this information yesterday.  I look at these next few weeks as this person’s opportunity to catch up to what I have already come to accept.

I have of late been concerned about the fairness of taking a settlement.  I found assurance that I have a right to such in an article I read on the Galactic Connection site entitled Ashtar on the Road – Tara & Rama Report 27May 2014.  Within it was cited another article, The Case for Reparations.  At the top of that article was the following quote:

And if thy brother, a Hebrew man, or a Hebrew woman, be sold unto thee, and serve thee six years; then in the seventh year thou shalt let him go free from thee. And when thou sendest him out free from thee, thou shalt not let him go away empty: thou shalt furnish him liberally out of thy flock, and out of thy floor, and out of thy winepress: of that wherewith the LORD thy God hath blessed thee thou shalt give unto him. And thou shalt remember that thou wast a bondman in the land of Egypt, and the LORD thy God redeemed thee: therefore I command thee this thing today.

— Deuteronomy 15: 12–15

So it would seem that my time where I have been justifies a settlement, especially when it is considered that my son feels that I am treated more as a servant here.

I discovered a new ashram last night: the Yogini Ashram.  I was looking for a place to learn about Tantra and found a Meetup.com listing (second day link) for a class that will take place at the end of the month.  It just seems like the right thing to explore, given the way things are working out lately.

As it turned out, my own guru had lived in the Yogini Ashram off and on for some time.  This was a reassuring reference.  The ashram has two temple rooms: one featuring Babaji, and the other featuring Kali.  My guru had just been talking about Babaji that morning with her Sunday meditation group.

The meeting I attended last night was Deep Yogic Relaxation – Yoga Nidra.  The process used was quite similar to guided meditation and creative visualization techniques used in hypnotherapy.  I warned them before we started that I was very tired, I might fall asleep during the process, and I might snore loudly when I did.  I was told that this was fine.  And so we proceeded.  I felt quite rested afterward.

After the Yoga Nidra process, I was invited to stay for the Kirtan event afterward.  It can be rather challenging to sing and chant in another language, but the call and response format made it easier.  Also, the chants started out slow and then built up speed, which also made it easier to follow along.

I have to keep reminding myself that the primary reason for the actions I am undertaking is to create a safe environment for my spiritual development. EVERYTHING else is secondary.

What I need in my environment is the peace and quiet for reflective meditation.  I need to be able to get up in the “angel hours,” if so prompted, and go meditate.  This morning, that was 4:30am.  I need a place where I can set up an altar with sacred objects.  I need a place where my spiritual activities won’t be disrespected.  I need a situation in which I can pursue my religious inclinations as I wish.  And really, any other considerations are secondary, in spite of how things may appear or whatever else may be happening.

I discovered Veronica Torres and her Eloheim channelings the other day when I listened to an episode of the The Crimson Circle Show with Geoff & Linda.  I took notes.  One thing she said is:

“If your relationships dim your light, you need to reevaluate why you’re in them.”

Well, I’ve been having serious problems of this type for some time now with a primary relationship.  I’ve wanted to get out for some time now, but I felt trapped for economic reasons.  Not only that, but the other-vibrational beings have been telling me since late last year that I need to move on because the environment is not healthy for me.  The TV is always on when the other person is present, which interferes with my ability to rest or read in my room; and the spiritual work I do is disrespected.  But in my stubbornness, I replied to the other-vibrational beings that I wanted to wait until the other person said something first.

That waiting hasn’t been going well.  The situation has just been getting more ridiculous and crazier.  It wasn’t long after the first message from an other-vibrational being that I was told by the other person that I had a snoring problem.  I decided to take that problem into meditation and ask Jesus to help heal it.  The result was not what I expected.  I was told that the snoring was there to create disaffection and help loosen the bonds of the problem relationship.  I told my meditation guru about this.  She told me that it was a common thing for relationships to change when one embarks upon the spiritual path.  Inappropriate things fall away, and other things come in.  I told her about the financial situation.  She assured me that if the ascended masters wanted me to move on, they would also create the provision of support.  I need not worry about the finances.  It would all work out.  But of course I remained concerned, and I remained where I was.  As time has passed, other things have been trying to come in; but having remained in the current situation rather than moving on, things have gotten kind of log-jammed.  The new can’t easily move in because the old is still present.  What is really frustrating about this in this moment is the realization that if I had done something when I was first told to do it, I would be completely free of that situation by now.  As Eloheim would say, “How ridiculous does it have to get?”

So back to Veronica Torres and Eloheim: I explored Veronica’s Eloheim site.  I like the message, and it’s something I very much needed.  For instance, the message about conspiracy theories let me know that I need to rethink my interest in them.  Eloheim said that interest in conspiracy theories was fine so long as they could be viewed with fascination rather than fear.  Also, the interest should not interfere with the activities of one’s purpose.  That made a lot of sense to me.  I figured that I had better break my addiction to the Before It’s News site because a lot of the stuff there was rather fear-inducing.  If I want to keep up with alternative media, there are other good sites for that which are better filtered.

Veronica Torres has written some Eloheim-channeled books.  One of them, The Choice for Consciousness: Tools for Conscious Living, Volume 1, provides 22 tools for moving from fear to fascination.  I’ve already mentioned one of them: “How ridiculous does it have to get?”  Another is “Clarity vs. certainty.”  Basically, this says we can never be absolutely certain of the future, but we can have perfect clarity.  Certainty is elusive, but clarity is real.  When we get stuck on needing certainty, we fail to act when action is needed.  I’ve had clarity around the need to move on for quite some time, but I wanted to be certain that it would be safe to move.  So here I am, stuck, because I insisted on certainty even though I had clarity that something needed to be done.  And we’re back to “How ridiculous does it have to get?”  And finally, it’s just gotten so ridiculous that there really was no choice but to do something.

 

The best news source I have found is Cosmic Vision News.  Geoffrey West, the reporter, scours many sources to pull together what is probably the most accurate report on what is going on out there.  The weekly broadcast includes considerable direct source materials.  The show’s summary includes links to source material.  A really nice aspect of the broadcast is that it relates the events to the process of spiritual awakening around the planet.  Even when reporting what would normally be fearful or stressful events, the reporter suggests a positive message in the event.  Each week’s broadcast is reported on the site’s blog.  You can find these broadcasts scheduled on the InLight Radio channel of BlogTalkRadio.